Senin, 16 April 2012

Dear Mom and Dad

its hurt !!! this song for my Mom and Dad :
Because of you

I will not make the same mistakes that you did 
I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery 
I will not break the way you did 
You fell so hard 
I've learned the hard way, to never let it get that far 

Because of you 
I never stray too far from the sidewalk 
Because of you 
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt 
Because of you 
I find it hard to trust 
Not only me, but everyone around me 
Because of you 
I am afraid 

I lose my way 
And it's not too long before you point it out 
I cannot cry 
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes 
I'm forced to fake a smile, a laugh
Every day of my life 
My heart can't possibly break 
When it wasn't even whole to start with 

Because of you 
I never stray too far from the sidewalk 
Because of you 
I learned to play on the safe side 
So I don't get hurt 
Because of you 
I find it hard to trust 
Not only me, but everyone around me 
Because of you 
I am afraid 

I watched you die 
I heard you cry
Every night in your sleep 
I was so young 
You should have known better than to lean on me 
You never thought of anyone else 
You just saw your pain 
And now I cry 
In the middle of the night 
For the same damn thing

Because of you 
I never stray too far from the sidewalk 
Because of you 
I learned to play on the safe side 
So I don't get hurt 
Because of you 
I tried my hardest just to forget everything 
Because of you 
I don't know how to let anyone else in 
Because of you 
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty 
Because of you 
I am afraid 

Because of you
Because of you

ya Because of you (Mom & Dad), semua yang kulakukan atas dasar paksaan dari mereka. Mulai dari sekolah, teman bergaul, dilarang kemana-mana kecuali dapat izin dari mereka ! I know its's normal for some people, but nobody knows what someone's feel, right ?? ya memang tak ada yang tau, kebanyakan dari mereka hanya memendam segala kepedihan dihati mereka dan tak ingin seseorang pun tahu apa isi hatinya. Begitu pula denganku, saya hanya bisa sabar dengan apa yang papa & mamaku inginkan. saya selalu berpikir dalam hati "Mungkin mereka melakukan hal itu demi kebaikan saya juga" terus dan terus berpikir seperti itu. tapi lama kelaman saya juga tidak tahan dengan semua itu, saya juga mau memilih sekolah sesuai keinginan saya sendiri sama seperti teman-teman saya yg lain yang memilih sekolahnya atas dasar kemauan mereka bukan kemauan orang tua!! saya juga mau bergaul dengan siapa saja, saya tahu yang mana yang baik dan yang mana yang benar, so PLEASE.. just TRUST me !! 
But deep in my heart : "One day.. I'll make you proud, I promise"


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