Senin, 14 Januari 2013
come back and make everything better, please!!
That's rreally all stupid. Everytime I see you I have this silly smile on the corner of my mouth. The sound of your voice accelerates the beating of my heart, as if it would eventually explode. Then when you touch me. I have this funny feeling. Butterflies in the stomach, it's how you say it I think. I imagined so many thing with you. Then I dreamed too, once, than two, then three, then I stopped counting. It's crazy that, you haunted me even in my dreams now. But all this Bullshit. I made illusions. This is a pathetic. I know very well how this going. There is you and there is me. And there will "we". here, I'm not going to sit here and pretend I don't miss you, because I do miss you. It's hard to stay strong when you're not around and it hard to convince myself that I'm not in love with you anymore, because I know, deep inside, I still am. I miss you. I miss our little talks. I miss when you text me and say "hey, baby". I miss when you text me "Good Morning, wake up dear. you must going to school" and saying i love you in our conversation. and I miss everything about us. I know, we are in a relationship with a very short, just 10 days. Honestly, I ever wish that I had never meet you since the incident. Then there would be no need to impress you. No need to want you. No need for loving you. No need for crying over you. No need for heartbreaks. No need for pain or tears. No need for forgotten promises. No need for rejected hugs. No need for crying like you care. No need, for everything you've done to make me feel like absolutely NOTHING. But then again, I'm glad I did meet you. Cause you were the one who always asked me if anything was wrong. you were to one who loved me for me. The one who cared when everyone else didn't. The one who listened. The one who stayed up late just to talk about the randomest shit ever. You were the one who I told secrets to. The one who taught me new things. The one who laughed at my jokes. The one who did things, just for me. I miss that moment, bitch. Everything is done! now, you hate me. Go on... I'm always waiting for you. I hope, one day you'll find a girl. She'll love you, she'll do anything for you, and she will care for you. A lot. The only thing she won't be, is me. She won't love you the way I do, and she won't put up with as much bullshit as I did. When you talk to other girls, she'll be asking you to take it easy, and probably just ask you to only talk to her. Remember, I'd even let you go. Sure, I got jealous sometimes. A lot, actually. But I didn't ask you to stop talking to other girls, and I didn't fight with you because you sent a heart to some girl on Twitter or some shit. Because I loved you (I still do) , and I accepted you having "girlfriends" , even tough you didn't accept me having guyfriends. For me, your friend - no matter sex - would be your friends, nothing more. And I trusted you enough to believe you only cared for me and only loved me. I know I was wrong, obviously you left me for one of your girlfriends, but just remember; the day will come when she's jealous and acting bitchy, and if you guys break up, but don't even thing about coming back to me. I'll be happy somewhere with someone else. He'll love me more than you ever did. And he won't break up with me just because he's not sure he still love me.